Feeling alone,

SHE feels like she is losing you and she has not felt this hurt in a very long time. Why is she hurting this much for something that is not official yet? Maybe she is falling in love with you and she has not realized it yet. You two have been seeing each other for half a year and now there is a riff between you two and it may all come crumbling down. She is afraid that it will. She feels very strongly about you and she thinks this time it may be different. You have this power to make her smile within a second flat and then it is nearly impossible to remove. You are so sweet to her and she adores you for that. She wants to treat you like a king and wants you to feel like no one has even made you feel before. She wants to fall in love with you and hold you tightly in her arms and kiss your cheeks. She wants to be there for you. She wants to be your girl. However, there is one thing stopping her from making this a reality; the distance. She has heard this reason before but she refuses to let you go like the other one. You two fought for the first time this past weekend and she has a fear of losing you because of that. Even though she was not the cause of the argument, she is still afraid because people always leave. You two are not on speaking terms until final exams are over because you cannot deal with this while you are in your study bubble.

I can see it in her eyes; how alone she feels right now. She has lost touch with her friends due to the distance and the last thing she wants to lose is you. She feels as if she cannot talk to anyone. She is ashamed. Ashamed because this always tends to happen to her; she loses the things she cherishes most. She feels afraid. Afraid for that nightmare to become a reality. She feels stupid. Stupid for letting herself get close to someone again after all that she has been through. She feels like letting go. Letting go because staying in this city has brought nothing but anguish for her. She feels like giving up. Giving up because she desperately wants to return home and gain her old life back.

When has everything become so damn complicated?

xx

Skinny love,

Come on skinny love, just last the year
Pour a little salt, we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer
I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right at the moment this order's tall
And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind
And in the morning, I'll be with you
But it will be a different kind
'Cause I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines
Come on skinny love, what happened here?
Suckle on the hope in light brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full, so slow on the split
And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind
And now all your love is wasted
Then who the hell was I?
'Cause now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines
Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?
Come on skinny love
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my


Skinny Love
- Birdy